actually feeling kinda proud of myself. i feel the i totally flipped the script on him. for the last few days I've been the one sad, just shy of begging to see him crying myself to sleep because i miss him so much..i guess my way of coping with it is trying to distance myself which conveniently is exactly what he wanted from he anyway (to not care). So we had plans to chill tonight, with a group of friends its something me and bieber put together on like Saturday i think, and after the last few days I've been going back and forth all day about whether i want to see him or not. so when he said he was sick i said i would understand if he stayed home and when he said he could come but didn't have a way over i was like oh I'm sorry. then he started talking to me about how he wanted me..physically...and i was like I'm sorry lol. oh well man, you better want what you asked for because your most definitely getting it. so I'm kinda just trying not to give a fuck, its a lot easier not to hurt and just do my thing this way. that's not to say i wont feel differently later but as of right now, he can kiss my freezing cold ass.
on another note, i ran into my apartment manager today while having Bella with me...that was fantastic..he most definitely knows about the dog now lol. I'm nervous to see what happens next. i told them i would bring in the money for my rent in like 10 days or so, but I'm a bit nervous that I'm gonna give them everything i have then end up evicted for having a dog and be broke and on my ass. idk, guess we'll see where it goes from here. jwoww suggested that we could live with her mom bc she has a spare room i could stay in..not a bad idea if push comes to shove. at least we wouldn't have to pay rent.
been fighting, thru notes might i add, with my roommate about the most petty shit it almost isn't worth mentioning. She wrote this note and i found it when i was about to leave for work this morning saying please clean up , letting us know she's gonna have ppl staying here and that she wants me to take the pictures off the wall so she could put something else up. I'm totally fine with her request for us to clean up, i was planning on doing it when i got home anyway no big and i was happy she let us know she was having ppl over whatever but there is no reason on Gods green earth that i should have to take my stuff down because she either doesn't like it or wants to put something else there.
its a common area, it means we all share it. its not just hers. so i made a complaint at the front office, wrote her a petty ass note back since she apparently isn't ever home to speak directly to and told her they re staying up and if she doesn't like it i hate it for her and shes just gonna have to find somewhere else in the house to put her "matching picture". do i care if shes mad? hell no. i already tried to keep the peace and all it did was give me a headache. I'm tired of her acting like this is her house. no bitch, we live here too not to mention we were here first. all in all, i guess i just decided i wasn't gonna take shit from anyone today...
"Love me or hate me, its still an obsession." ~ Lady sovereign
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