What is it that keeps someone in a bad relationship? What about a non-relationship? Why do i deal with my jealous insecure ex boyfriend controlling my life and doing anything he wants. He doesn't guard his tongue or even think first when he speaks to me. I messaged him "i miss you" and all he said was "I'm srry". What an asshole....then i asked him "what you don't miss me?" and he said "ill get back to you on that." he doesn't want his friends to know he's talking to me. He dwells on something that happened 5 or 6 months ago as if it happened yesterday. He doesn't trust me. Most of the time i question if he even cares about me...I have absolutely no idea why i am still trying to be with him.
Dear you,
I came back to this relationship five months ago thinking things would be different. You made promises that you are most definitely not keeping. I withstood all of the emotional violence you threw my way because i wanted you to heal, but its gone on far too long. You tell me you are embarrassed for you friends to know you're talking to me. You don't trust me. You don't care about my feelings, thoughts, opinions, or pains. I do everything i can to make you happy to ensure the healing process can take place and you still find ways to fight with me...its always something. And even more you want me to be the reason its not working...i have no clue why you don't want to accept any blame for the failure of a "relationship" because obviously we both had a part in it...But i cant do this anymore.So fine, blame it on me.... until now, for five long miserable months, i have been willing to bend and mold to whatever you need. I have told you what i want to change and you do nothing about it and still i stay here...but i cant do this any longer. I need to leave because it has become blatantly obvious to me that this relationship is never going to be a relationship, and you're never going to treat me any better. I can't be responsible for your actions, but i am for my reactions. I know the life i want, and even more so the life i deserve and I'm going after it. I'm sure I'm gonna hurt and miss the idea of you a lot. But I'm sure it will be well worth it when i do find happiness. And in case your wondering no one talked me into this, i just prayed about it, read my bible and listened to the song i posted on your wall on repeat. I decided God has better things in store for me. Ill keep you in my prayers.
Sincerely,
Crystal
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