So now im accepting what he wants to do.... things are over for natty jo and i. Yes it hurts, yes it sucks but it had to be done. the last couple years have been hell on us both. on tuesday he left me, late wednesday night/thursday morning he deleted me from his friends list then today he made his wall private so i couldnt see it and i decided i needed to just move forward.. its for the best...so i blocked him, more so that i cant look at his stuff rather than him being able to see mine.
I wish things could have worked out differently. This is how our last converstaion (which just happened) went:
Me: Im giving your brother you things.
him: okay thanks
me: mmhmm
me: i blocked you to make this easier on me. i dont know when we will talk again, but if you need to reach me you know my number.Sorry things couldnt work out better. Good luck with everything
him: lol same to you
me: if i see you out ill be civil just like i was today. i want you to know i do love you and i do care and i hope that we can be friends one day. if you ever need me ill be here.
him: ya ok
I did all i could do for this relationship, and it just wasnt working. so like i told my loko, he may have the satisfaction of walking away first, but i have the satisfaction of being able to say i was here and i tried no matter how hard it was on me. so now im putting him in the same box as jacob..the "i care and love you but you left me and im okay with that but dont you ever come back because this door is closed" box...the "im still processing these emotions but im moving on anyway" box.
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