:-/

i miss him. I cant wait to not feel anything anymore. i cant wait to be over it all. im happy its over. i really do think its for the best, at the least for right now. and ya i guess eventually i had to sit and feel it. my friends just keep telling me to be strong and push thru it... and i guess that would be alot easier to do if old memories didnt keep creeping in. i randomly thought about how he was at the begining of august, all the promises he made.... and broke...right along with my heart. my friends post said something about stop trying to find someone to love bc he will come along when your busy loving yourself....i guess i need to learn to do that. i sometimes think that one day he and i will end up getting back together, but recently i feel like its just never going to be possible. i wish he had some way to see exactly how i feel....whatever. i think i need to just go to sleep.