beach day getaway

Had a pretty good day...it was nice to get away. The beach always seems to be soothing just when i need it. Hit the gym early this morning, then walked the girls and left for st. augustine around 1. had subway for lunch, laid out on the beach for probably about an hour or two, then decided to hit up the town because the sun was hiding behind clouds most of the time. Once in town, we parked at the visitors center and strolled thru several blocks of the historic downtown area. we went to the oldest pharmacy where they had all kinds of ancient indian remedies. jwoww and i got friendship rings..mine says "j <3 c" and hers says "C <3 J" and we both got them on our wedding ring finger....we're fake married now lol. we casually went in and out of all kinds of shops looking at everything from hermet crabs to sweaters taking pictures all along the way.  at one point we even went into an art museum!

we got the most delicious hot chocolate then headed over to the fort to take more pictures...i got some really great ones. we headed back to the car and came back to town. once we got back to gainesville we let the girls out again, and headed up to the hot tub. it was a great way to end a good day... ive really been missing jb...i know the seperation is best but it still doesnt stop me from wishing he was here or that i could hear his voice just once more. i was texting him randomly throughout the day a couple days ago and he stopped answering, so i did my best to not talk to him at all yesterday which i am proud to say i accomplished..it was really hard. this morning on the way to the beach a song came on and made me think of him and i gave in and texted him to no avail (he still didnt answer).

so when i got home and in bed, i decided i would call and see why he hasnt been answering me. as it turns out, his phone is off. makes sense..and makes me feel better. atleast i know he isnt ignoring me on purpose. or atleast im pretty sure he isnt. i guess we'll see what happens. maybe the idea that i cant reach him anyway will make me stop trying. im watching a sappy sad love movie about a widow, and im so annoyed by the cat at the moment because she is destroying my bathroom. i am hoping getting some rest will make me feel a bit more productive tomorrow...i still really want to move around my room. and i really hope i get a good nights rest, i feel like i havent slept in days.