morning thoughts

Funny the one thing i need to function is music. i sat down to start my blog and couldnt even process a thought until i turned on Pandora. I even tried to draw inspiration from reading my friends blog, but all i got from that was a ton of laughs....atleast it was entertaining. then i was just like crap...why i cant i think of anything to talk about other than the status of my fucked up non-relationship with JB?! kinda makes me angry. so i dont want to talk about that....this is a total wayyy off topic tangent...Back to music. I love how i just feel it deep in my soul and it wakes me up and almost motivates me to get the fuck up and do something with my life. im not feeling very motivated today..i woke up thinking to myself "what am i doing with my life?" its pretty rare for that to be a first thought....usually my first thoughts are along the lines of "shut up bella", "what time is it", "im soooo hungry", or i have to pee..." but never something as serious as "what am i doing with my life?". I dont like being a party girl, but i do like hanging out with friends. i hate being a constant wastecase, and honestly i would MUCH rather have quality fun that i can actually remember. Anyway...i should do something since ive been talking about how i dont do anything lol