Being with JB for so long, ive never had the opportunity to pursue new hobbies. However all this newfound spare time has to be filled somehow. Today, i took the time to visit him at school, which my gut instinct kept telling me would be a bad idea. It wasn't horrible, but it definitely wasn't my best idea either. After coming home and creating my first blog, i started to feel a bit better. I decided to be nice, and bring him his phone charger, which ofcoarse is to no advantage to me bc i have very little expectation i'll be the one he's contacting tonight. From my understanding, he is planning on going to the club with Annie, presumably alone, then spending the night at her apartment (supposedly so that he doesnt have to call his dad for a ride) and because he wants to spend time with savar again tomorrow until she has class and he has work. looks like he has his hands full.
After leaving his job (because thats where he was when i brought him his charger) i started thinking, maybe i should just start thinking of him as just another friend...maybe then i wont care what he's doing. And if i dont care, then i dont hurt. so far it seems like a fantastic idea. While waiting on the bus and thinking over this grand idea, i overheard some students saying something about a free intermediate salsa class that meets twice a week. i went to check it out then came home. I must say i am pretty excited about attending, and jessica agreed to be my date : )
So this is how you pull your life back together. monday and wednesday is salsa class, tuesday is flirty girl fitness, thursday is jersey shore...im thinking about making it into a bit of a gathering, and friday is gator nights. so far so good :) now i just have to find a day job to fill the rest of my time! i must say, while this is difficult and painful and sometimes i just want to jump off a cliff, other times...like right now...it feels damn good to be able to pull myself together and do something positive with my life.
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